A ticking time bomb

This is going to be a very short post. In my last pregnancy, I gave birth to Gavin today. 30 weeks and 4 days. So any day past this day I will count as a blessing. I am still hoping to make it to 36 weeks (and beyond) without any issues, but as the title states, I feel like a ticking time bomb. I pray daily for 36 weeks - at home, in my car or whenever the panic starts to overwhelm. I know my last pregnancy was MUCH different and you can never compare the two, but I'm not confident enough to believe that it will be much different.

We have our next ultrasound tomorrow, so I'll post a picture if I can and I'll write some fun things about Gavin and my parents visit.

Oh and officially we are scheduled for a C-section on May 13th - which is a Friday. I am not a superstitious person, but even I am not sure I can handle giving birth on Friday the 13th. I'm thinking about calling them to change it to the 12th, but I somewhat feel it would be wasted effort - that would be 38 weeks and 6 days - that doesn't even seem possible. We'll see.